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Thursday, July 23rd, 2009
11:04 pm	So I just played the game The Path... it's an indie game that's based on the older versions of Red Riding Hood, ie the disturbinger ones. You pick one of six sisters of varying ages, (all red-themed; Rose, Ginger, etc) and start on a path. The game says: Go to Grandmother's House. Stay on the Path. Aaand I kind of want to leave it at that (at least un-cut), because it is an Arty Game and it helps to go into it with as few ideas of what is supposed to happen as possible. If you randomly try it, though, just know that it is very Arty and very, very slow-paced. In fact, speaking of slow - I think it is vitally important to mention that there is a way to run. I nearly gave up playing just because DANG you walk slowly. DANG. SLOW. (On the PC it's holding down both mouse buttons.) ( Ok more spoilerishy thoughts here ) So basically, I have to say I kind of ish liked it? Sort of? I liked the idea of it and the framing - and I do like things that are implied and let you sort of figure them out. The thing is, I feel like this did not have enough really to figure out - either not enough going on in their idea of the story or not enough given to you. It reminds me of a riddle one of the people at work was trying to make us do - like, all day she kept trying to make us guess it. It went: "A man walks into a restaurant. He's seated, and he asks for an order of pelican soup. He gets it, takes one bite, and bursts into tears. He goes straight home and kills himself. Why?" And she said, you can ask me questions, but they have to be yes or no. So we're sitting there like - um. Was he a chef? Did he get what he wanted? Was it cooked correctly? Is the pelican and the killing himself related? (No, yes, yes, yes) And so we were like uh, I don't know? And she was like come on! You have to keep trying! So we were like - does... does he have a pelican for a pet? (no) And she kept being like "you guys! you'll be like OH MAN when I tell you, it will be so obvious and worth it." So we kind of irritatedly kept guessing (because she also kept bugging us when we gave up on it/stopped guessing), and guessing, until we really seriously couldn't think of anything else, and FINALLY she was like fine! okay, whatever, I'll tell you. Okay. The story was, this guy had been on a plane with his wife and a bunch of other people, and they crashed onto a desert island. He lived, but his wife did not. He and the other survivors ate what they were told was pelican soup... and when he tried the pelican in the restaurant, he knew what he had was Not Pelican Soup. And so he was like Suck and killed himself. So, first: I bring this up because I am still irritated about it - how the heck are you supposed to get to that via yes or no questions? (!?!) But also, this is kind of how I feel like this game is treating me. It's being like, oh, I have this whole story thing going on! it is very meaningful and symbolic and things! I am letting you guess what it is and fill it in with your imaginations!" And I am sitting there like "But... There isn't that much here... I don't really... ... Does he have a pelican for a pet?" (Comment on this)
Monday, July 6th, 2009
7:40 pm	It randomly seemed like time to post something. ... Ok, I have been watching random original season Star Trek episodes. From what I vaguely remembered about watching them when I was younger, I was expecting them to be just pretty much hilarious, with maybe good characters. And some of the things... are really hilarious, see: Dog in Alien Suit. But I was (probably unfairly) surprised: almost all of the episodes I've seen at least have some really interesting philosophical issues going on (although those issues tend to go: Here is one side, here is the other. The other side is the antagonists, but they have some good points, and who is to say what's right and what's wrong in this situati... oh, wait, no, now they're just being bitches, we're right). And some are really, unequivocally good. It's all old school sci-fi brain bender/philosophy/short story sort stuff, which I totally like. And I, of course, still love Spock the best no matter what. Current Mood: entertained Current Music: I was ENTERTAAAAAAINED (Comment on this)
Friday, February 13th, 2009
2:04 pm	I'm just kind of eh. Although, wait, I tell you what, ( Patricia McKillip is so my favorite author (still). ) Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 27th, 2009
10:31 am	woooo okay my brain is FRIED today. I think it is a pre-headache sort of wooooo no thinkiiiiiing thing going on, but usually by now I do get a headache, so maybe there will be no headache. but there is a lot of woooo going on anyways. maybe it is just the caffene ... caffiene... eeneeneien (spellcheck says: caffeine. stupid vowels). yesterday. combined with a weird amount of sleep, but I couldn't get to sleep last night for a while because my heart was beating too hard. I think. I don't know if that was actual or that half asleep thing where things seem all really important but you are actually half asleep and concentrating on it too hard, like being able to feel people walking near you when you are dozing on the couch. or I am freak, either one. my heartbeat still feels kind of weird, as it generally does during these headachy things, which I don't know if that is bad or what and kind of worry sometimes about. okay for not being able to think I am writing a lot but that kind of makes sense, the part of my brain that cares enough to stop is kind of fried too. uhhmmm have some more pictures. ( mildly to moderately big pictures made in MS paint with indifferent skill, you know you want to see them ) Okay looking back and reading this, I feel like this is kind of more coherent and my thoughts follow each other more logically than most of the times that I write, which amuses me. I guess I will wait and see what I think of it later if I get around to reading it later. Maybe my brain is actually working SUPER WELL. Current Mood: no arm bruise! Current Music: that is like a first (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 24th, 2009
12:41 am	my sisters have already heard ALL OF THIS a lot it is today's Thing I gave blood to-day! ( It was kind of an adventure which is not especially the way you want it to go. ) Current Mood: WOOSH stampede stampede Current Music: My kitty is making her own fun (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 20th, 2009
9:35 am	I do not have 104 journal entries! what. that is crazy. Here is my apparently annual posting. .__. Uhm, let's see - I have a new job! I am doing Human Resources and Security Miscellaneous, which has its good parts and its not so great parts. It's the same company my dad, and my uncle, and my other uncle, and my other uncle work at too, whiiiiich same. XD They're not all of them in the exact same office I'm in at least. My dad and 1 uncle is, and 1 is in Pennsylvania and 1 is in New York. Really, so far the only thing that's really come of all of my relatives being here is that I have trouble calling them by their first names. Well. Ok, mostly it hasn't come up, but I've been trying to be mentally prepared. It feels really weird to do, even like hypothetically. But I know I'll feel nepotastic if I keep going "My dad" and "my uncle - no, no, the other one." Also, I have been randomly doodling in Paint when I need a break, and I kind of like my crazy little things, so I'ma post them. :|b And, let's see. To make me keep posting, (because mostly I want to post my random pictures, and ramble about them) I will only post a couple at a time. ( Totally random Paint drawings ) Current Music: I also have 112 images in my photobucket (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2008
6:29 pm	My Celebrity Look-alikes ( Oh, look, one of those Celebrity Look-alike things that everyone did. A year ago. I'm awesome. And I look like Bob Marley? )   I don't know, should I be happy that I look like George Clooney, or not? Also what is up with making me use your buttony ways to make an elljay cut, LiveJournal post editor. Oh, there are tabs to switch modes. ..... maybe I should post more. Current Mood: quixotic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
9:53 pm	woo I gots some new icons! ... Otherwise I am not doing anything interesting. Oh! Well, I'm taking a Gaelic class? that is somewhat interesting. I keep trying to think of scenarios where I can actually bust out with the fact that I know Gaelic and the answer is Not Many Really. Well, it gets me out of the house. :|b Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Lily Allen - Friday Night (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 9th, 2007
4:09 pm	Oh snap it's a meme Wikipedia band meme! 1. Go to the Wikipedia home page and click "random article" (in the menu on the left). That is your band's name. 2. Click random article again; that is your album name. 3. Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album. Band name: Finite type invariant <- kind of cool Album name: Edgerton's Law <- ... this band is a geeky band. Tracks: 1. Mahuika <- a female Māori fire deity! awesome 2. Zohar Manna <- a professor of computer science at Stanford University! ... dot dot dot! 3. Dance Hall Racket <-... what this actually sounds like a song 4. Japanese art <- it. it might work as a title if it's not literal? ... actually an art critique song would be A+ 5. Arcana Coelestia <- "Heavenly Secrets" awesome 6. Due South: The Original Television Soundtrack <- .... UH. 7. Le petit Nicolas <- French children's books - dang they have an official site 8. Kōzan-ji <- neaaaat an Omuro Buddhist temple 9. Just a Little While <- iiiiit's someone else's song title 10. Ryan Peters <- a professional footballer? ... do we just kind of stalk random people, imaginary band? 11. Grant McConachie <- ... a Canadian bush pilot and businessman who became CEO of Canadian Pacific Airlines. So that's a yes, then. 12. Millennium (disambiguation) <- totally with the parenthetical and all 13. Equatorial Guinea at the 1984 Summer Olympics <- .... yes 14. Palmar interossei muscles <- oh huh hand muscles 15. Alan Henson <- DANGIT a rugby player? STOP THAT IMAGINARY BAND. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 28th, 2007
7:33 pm	Random things about work: There is an ad on the radio that is on a) the R&B station b) the Country station c) the alt-Rock station, so I hear it on 3 different radios. I. I don't know what it is. It's a lady singing something that sounds like "I'm gonna make you pay. I'm gonna make you eat a cookie." and. ... I don't know what that could be. I seriously tried googling it and everything. I don't know if it's the repetition or the NONSENSICAL part that bothers me more. There are two (2) ladies who I know WAY TOO MUCH ABOUT. Because one likes to talk on the phone all the time, and one likes to talk out loud about what's in her head at that moment all the time. I have waaaaaaay too much to do. Current Mood: blah Current Music: that is the best face (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 27th, 2007
12:52 pm	I am bad at socializing! ... says the geeky girl using the internets. Yeah. Actually, I remember many chatrooms where people start going "oh, I'm pretty introverted" and someone will pop up "no way, me too!" and it keeps going until almost everyone has agreed. Which. I mean. Is like "... Oh, man, what a shocker! No, seriously, I never would have thought!" XD Well, but having said that, my instinctive response to the (first few) people saying that was also surprise, even after it'd happened a couple times. For most of society that kind of introversion is weird, so it's nice to find people who do feel the same way, even if it's so predictable. XD But no, seriously, I am so introverted. I don't know if it is genuine 100% introversion or if it combines with other parts of my personality to make me never ever ever ever want to do things with people, but. (the introversion would be "never want to do things with people," and the other parts would be "never want to do things at all") Even on the internets I really fail at interaction. Which, hm, wait - I don't know why I think that's weird. Wait, I do, it's the difference between being shy and being introverted. It's not going to make me 'come out of my shell' to be able to assume a different identity. I don't care if everyone is anonymous on the internet, you are still a person and I am talking to you ew :\. (... I don't mean the ew people I talk to!) The thing is, I know that I reject doing things that make me interact with people a lot more often than I really wouldn't have liked doing those things. Y'know, I don't like talking with people frequently, but I can take doing it more often than... never. I guess I talk with people some at work? and my family? ... I need like 40 more hours in a day so I can make myself go talk to people. Current Mood: thinky Current Music: curiosity is not that sad of a thing (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 18th, 2007
1:35 pm	Hey I just realized I do actually have something new that happened! I gots all my wisdom teeth out. .__.b Actually... that happened... a few weeks ago. 8D Apparently it REALLY NEEDED to happen - either that or my dentists have people who argue with them a lot. I went in for a check up and my dentist was like "okay so is anything wrong?" and I go "Well my wisdom teeth bother me sometimes" so he's like "Hmmmmm. wellllll, okaaay we'll see if anything is really wrong." and then he checked it and then the first thing he said was "Okay! so the front desk will make you an appointment for a consultation with the guy who does extractions, and now you go get an x-ray for that." 8D And then I went in for the consultation and it went EXACTLY THE SAME. Him: "what's wrong?" Me: "Blah blah teeth" Him: "weelllllllllll okaaay we'll see" .... "OKAY SO HERE'S WHAT CAN GO WRONG WITH THE SURGERY." So yeah the actual extraction took... almost two hours? And I got druuugs but I wasn't knocked out. It was mostly like I wanted to nap but people kept poking my mouth so it was hard. But apparently it was kind of a difficult extraction because after the nurse kept going "D: D: D: D:" at me. although. She was kind of inclined to do that anyways. I did get stitches in my gums. :Db They gave me ibuprofen and percoset for after. |Db The pain never got so bad that I needed the percoset, though. Aaand then when I told that to the same nurse that she was like "REALLY? WOW, AFTER ALL THAT?", so now I'm like ".. D: WAIT AFTER ALL WHAT? WHAT HAPPENED?" So yeah now I have hooooles in my guuuums which is basically the most annoying part. ._.p for six weeks! Well now it's down to three. Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: indifferent is happy (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 3rd, 2007
6:48 pm	Rumors of my demise have been greatly exaggerated! ... maybe Mostly I am thinking that there have been no rumors. SO. To summarize re: my complete-ass disappearance, I suck. I suck at juggling between working at a real-adult job and doing anything else ever. I suck at letting people know that I suck, instead choosing to immediately and intensely hibernate and be like "They'll figure it out!" Augh, I'm sorry - I'm also sorry it's been like MONTHS AND IT'D BE KIND OF WEIRD TO BUST OUT AND APOLOGIZE TO THE ACTUAL PEOPLE I DISAPPEARED FROM? I DUNNO. "hey remember me from almost a year ago? uh sorry about that" .__. Also driving. I suck at that. And socializing, really. And while we're at it, cleaning my room. And the way I dropped playing the flute. And don't work enough on helping w/ my sister's projects after I said I would. And drawing, I guess, she thinks I should. Anyways in actual life news I am taking bonus classes which I kind of hate doing and kind of love doing, mostly the technical writing one is awesome. And stress-y, with the driving to new places and doing new things and leading to doing new things at my job which will involve taking on responsibilities and actually interacting with my bosses directly. Sooo either I'll actually post here out of wound-up random or I'll totally ditch it again some more. LET'S WAIT AND SEE. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: also - why is shocked happy-looking? (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
1:25 am	oops Uh in case you saw the Christmas thing - that was totally meant for my family (I'm totally not actually soliciting gifts from you-all!). ._. So! Since I'm here anyways - um, what have I been up to. Mostly reading - I've re-discovered that I like to read. It's kind of taken a back seat to games, in a way, since I can generally get through a novel in a few hours and games at least make me take longer. I have been getting new books here and there, but yeah, they're like blips. I've been going through Austen, which my mum endeavored to make me read when I was small and found very confusing, and which now I like very much. It's also influenced me to use more of my vocabulary! on occasion. Although while she has an excellent romantic build-up, she isn't as good with the follow-through - still, I love her characterization and the language. And then the internet reccomended to me His Majesty's Dragon and Larklight, both of which are very cool and now I really want the sequels to the first. Um, currently also I'm very very tired and possibly a little sick, so I can't think of anything else that's entertaining. XD Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
3:20 pm	woo, day 2 Okay, to-day is going public because I have something from my real life that is new that I can talk about! Wait. Did I already? I can never keep track of that - okay, no, I hadn't. I am getting a promotiony thing at work! Which is cool, and yet... I currently word-process, and then my word-proccesry goes through a proofreading thing where we have to read it out loud etc, and then at the end the reviewer does a final check and makes sure everything is right. I am getting trained to do that last thing! I think mostly as a backup? But then to move into that once everyone's moved around. It's occasionally terrifying and kind of cool, and really excellent validation about how I'm doing a good job, but! Um. ... my job is so boring. Like. It takes so much attention and is the same thing over and over and over again. I so love my company and the people in it, but dang. I just don't know what I'd rather do instead, you know? I don't know what my job skills are, or what they could apply to. I bet there's some webpages out there with stuff along those lines, actually - or books or both. ... I should really have looked into that before, too, but it seems so much more possible now. :P I really do so much better at researching or learning things when I've had some hands-on experience with it - or, at least, I am so much more willing. I need kind of a base to work from, something to pick at, and I hate to speculate without any sort of basis in reality. ... well, something like that. XD Um, I'll work on that theory. And on finding something I want to do that makes me money. Current Mood: hopeful (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
3:57 pm	Man, it has been forever since I have updated (yet again) and it is because of this (and partly that I want to try to keep up with/get better at my writing, and partly because I am very tired and I don't want to do my work) that I have decided that I am going to update this thing every day. Even if I have to cheat and like just write what I had for lunch or "hi hi hi hi" a lot. BUT. Before you despair, I am also going to keep some (most) (maybe all, depending) of these entries private, depending on quality, how I feel at the time, if I actually ate something good, etc. WISH ME LUCK. SO. There is one thing that has been a bonus about commuting, and that is that I have gotten to listen to a lot more of my music. I mean, I like music, but mostly I don't think of putting it on while I'm on the computer doing stuff, or it distracts me when I do that, or I totally, totally don't pay attention and still have no idea if I want to keep it not. Driving to/fro work is a perfect balance of really, really boring and mindless and yet requiring enough of my attentions to be able to actually listen to the songs playing (and sing with them! That is my favorite part, really.) Anyways, so yeah - now I know I seriously love Hawksley Workman, and Franz Ferdinand, and I only kind of appreciate... some band whose name I can't remember but whose songs I've had forever unlistened to. Also I am discovering Regina Spektor (she is so cool)! ALSO it is good for when I am addicted to songs and would normally be playing them on endless, endless repeats, which actually is a habit of mine that makes me sad (entry for another time!) Current Mood: accomplished? (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
12:23 pm	HI INTERNETS I have not updated in a long time! I, in fact, have not even updated since my Birthday (the 4th!) which is partly because I spent it in New York w/ my grandparents, whose 50th wedding anniversary it was. On the same day! Well, but we celebrated it the next day with a picnic with people I kind of knew. And I went out for dinner on my actual birthday (also: was driven up to New York) ALSO I got a DS Lite! :D :D :D All I own for it is Brain Academy but I actually really love Brain Academy. You do little puzzles and it tells you how smart you are at them and they're actually kind of hard. ALSO I'm sick. Mostly I have been adjusting to the way I have an ADULT PERSON JOB that is full time and I COMMUTE TO IT. I'M A COMMUTER. And adult person issues like: my car's breaks make terrible terrible noises and need to be fixed for money. Also the fact that an ADULT PERSON JOB that is full time that I COMMUTE to is kind of monotonous and depressing, and half of me is full of work ethic and doing the best I can for the sake of my company, and half of me severely resents putting the effort into mastering skills that are dumb and have limited use and value to me. Also: the severe shortage of time for myself overall. I've managed to re-phrase it to myself as the chance to develop self-discipline and attentiveness and professionalism and the skills of unsolicited communication and other things I lack, and so I'm more into it. But I still kind of resent the system that comprises the working world as a whole. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 8th, 2006
2:07 am	I saw that Pirate movie. :D ( Way Spoilers! ) Okay, bed. 8D (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
10:15 am	At least I found out by thinking there was just one and vigrously upending it with the brush I HATE ROACHES Current Mood: CUP FULL OF ROACHES Current Music: WHAT THE FUCK (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
12:50 pm	.... >_>..... <_< .... hee, I totally bought a Bento box from the Asian-stuff store. :D It is kind of wee, but I've heard they're kind of wee in general so it seems fine. Also, it's got two tiers. :D But nothing to hold them together, so I probly should fashion/acquire some kind of bag or band or whatever. Altho now that I drive (oh hey, I drive. :D) I don't really have to carry it much. So far (today) it has been totally neat, and I have all sorts of grand plans for it, but since I'm in the habit of having grand plans about things and then kind of ditching them entirely we shall see how much really gets done with it. XD Also, both Bethy and I are gonna pack them, so hopefully we'll be able to keep each other at it. It can totally just be a neat lunchbox if it has to be. :D Today I put in: rice, some shredded carrots on the rice, two (2) little pickles, a half-sammich, a quarter of fried tomato (experiment with British cookin), a few slices of a GIANT cucumber, a bunch of yogurt rasins, and a candy. The sammich is mostly turning out to be a before-and-presumably-after lunch snack, and the rest was pretty filling. :D Mostly the awesomest thing about it is it makes me find things to fill it up with, so then I actually pack enough for me to eat, and it's real foods instead of packing, say... a ziplock bag of chips, a candy and a snack-cake thing. 8D Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: co-worker's radios (2 Comments |Comment on this)